I'm sorry for hurting you,
I'm sorry for making you cry,
I'm sorry i didn’t realize why I didn’t sleep for days,
Now I know because I hurt you.
I must be a fool,
To have hurt my friend, who has been nothing but kind!
I only wanted the best for you, within your life;
I thought I had the solution,
But it seems that I was wrong.
I never meant to make you feel, like I’ve cut you with a knife!
It was my mistake,
I opened up completely to you,
Something I NEVER, EVER do again to anyone!
I never thought that the DEVIL, could possibly win!
I had kept him at bay for quarter of century, I thought I won
But alas!!! I lost the battle of life.
I was carried over by his worldly charm
Now a “TRUE” friend, I have really lost!?
I will never see you again,
Lest, my eyes betray me again
I have closed my eyes forever.
May be it is better to be blind.
God, I have broken my promise,
I had promised,
That I would never hurt anyone
Even if I am hurt, injured or dead
But my Magical Angel I promise,
I will never hurt anyone again
I will never do the silly thing I did to you
I will never, never, never.
When I look back, I don’t know where I erred
When I look around, I see people with more sins happy.
But I can’t live with my soul tainted
Forgive me, I have sinned.
I am an illusion, fading away
A broken twig, swaying in the wind,
A chariot with a broken wheel
You deserve a better place.
I have prayed for you
I have asked, God
to give you my share of happiness, if any
to give me your share of sorrows and worries
I have prayed for victory against devil.
- Abhi
(I know this doesn’t sounds great may be like someone playing Elvis on a broken guitar, There is 5 more confessions to my dad, mom, sister, God and at last to myself, yes it’s an epic, another new year resolution)
