Showing posts with label poetry. Show all posts
Showing posts with label poetry. Show all posts

Monday, November 18, 2013

साए_की_तरह_आई_वोह..उस परी की याद मे

उस परी की याद मे... फिर के नाम
उस खूबसूरत चाँद की याद मे जिसे देख चांदनी भी शर्माये......

छोड़ गयी मुझे इस बेरहम दुनिया मे,
दीन का  उज़ाला लूट  लिया
रात का अँधेरा छोड़ दिया 
साए की तरह आई वोह ....

लोगों का कहना है 
चांदनी बड़ी खुबसूरत  है
रौशनी को छोड़, लोग अँधेरे को पूजते  है
हमे क्या पता, दीन या रात कौन खुबसूरत
हमे तो बस अँधेरे में जीना है


छोड़ यादों को आया इस दूर
भीड़ में, इस अनजाने शहर मे 
लेकिन यादों ने साथ ना छोडा 
साए ने भी साथ ना छोडा

जला डाला तेरी तस्वीर इस सौच मे
की तेरी याद अब ना आईगी
पर कैसे मीठा सकू उस तसवीर को
जो मेरे रूह में बस गई है

दिल को मनाया कई बार
पर दिल मे एक कसक सी लगी है
एक अजब सी बेचैनी है
वह ना जीने देथी है ना मरने

अजनबी गलियो में भटक रहा हू
अपने ही घर का पता ढूँढ रहा हू
इस कश्म्कश में ना जाने क्या कर बैठा
ख़ुद पराया हो गया हू

किसी हमदर्द ने पूछा मेरे इस दर्द का कारण
लब्ज़ो में ना बता सका दिल का हाल
कोशिश करता तो भी क्या कहता

व्यर्थ की आशा है फीर भी यह अरमान लिए
घूम रहा हू कि एक एक बार तुमसे मिल सकूँ
अपने इस लाचारी का इलाज कर सकूँ
मेरे इस अधूरे जीवन को पूरा कर सकूँ
अपने आप से मिल सकू

साए की तरह आई वोह…

- अभिलाष चन्द्र 

Sunday, August 26, 2012

Towards the distant rainbow



Dark clouds are gathering fast in my sky
The eastern wind has lost its rhythm
Swirling around me in a deafening roar
I cannot even hear my heart crying over my dead soul.

I opened the window to embrace the coldness
I gave myself to the emptiness
The deep cut inside me shivered
The heart throbbed within me,
 trying to break free.

It has started raining heavily
The sky is pouring out,
coming down rapidly to embrace me
to comfort me in its hug, wiping my tears
Washing out all the dirt, all the emotions I had
Purifying me , strengthening me for the battles that awaits me

I stood there watching my last defense fading away with the passing clouds
Helpless, aimless, emotionless
Among the ruin, I have nothing else to hold on
only my shattered dreams and a lifeless soul.

The road ahead is slippery
How can I move forward?
But somehow I have started walking again,
Towards the distant rainbow, where dreams meet the reality
Where the world is not cruel.

I know I will reach there someday,
I know I am bleeding, It hurts a lot
But  I cannot stop, victory & glory awaits me
I have to move forward…

.................................
(It was a cloudy day, with heavy rains. when it started raining I opened my window, felt rain drops on my bare skin, I stood there for few minutes, closing my eyes. There was no rainbow nearby but it should be somewhere, hidden to my eyes)

Abhilash

I am lost


I lost my sleep in my wandering
I searched but didn’t find the peace
Slowly I am losing myself,
Don’t know what it is.
It is a strange feeling,
Never knew it would feel like this
The heart has stopped beating
There is only a vacuum, a numbness
I cannot feel anything
Am I dead or living dead?

I have lost my dreams
It is darkness everywhere
Where am I to go?
Even the dreams has deserted me
Can I be in a dream?
It can’t be, how can I dream with eyes open
But it can’t be real also
How much more I have to suffer?


I have lost my soul
I have a big hole in me
Tearing me apart
It is hurting so deep
Like a deep cut of knife
I am slowly bleeding to death

I was so blind
I was expecting water in this desert
I should have known
I cannot escape my destiny
I cannot escape pain
Alas, it was only a mirage
Am I supposed to die of thirst in this desert?


I just wish that this pain would go away
I just wish that I could sleep in that embrace
I am so empty
I am lost in this wilderness

....................................................

Abhilash

Saturday, June 09, 2012

Kelly Clarkson - What doesn't kill you makes a fighter

You know the bed feels warmer


Sleeping here alone

You know I dream in colour

And do the things I want

You think you got the best of me

Think you had the last laugh

Bet you think that everything good is gone

Think you left me broken down

Think that I'd come running back

Baby you don't know me, cause you're dead wrong

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

Stand a little taller

Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

What doesn't kill you makes a fighter

Footsteps even lighter

Doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger

Just me, myself and I

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

Stand a little taller

Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

You heard that I was starting over with someone new

They told you I was moving on over you

You didn't think that I'd come back

I'd come back swinging

You tried to break me, but you see

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

Stand a little taller

Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

What doesn't kill you makes a fighter

Footsteps even lighter

Doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger

Just me, myself and I

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

Stand a little taller

Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

Thanks to you I got a new thing started

Thanks to you I'm not the broken hearted

Thanks to you I'm finally thinking bout me

You know in the end the day you left was just my beginning

In the end...

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

Stand a little taller

Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

What doesn't kill you makes a fighter

Footsteps even lighter

Doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger

Just me, myself and I

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

Stand a little taller

Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

© Kelly Clarkson

You have touched me more profoundly than I thought even you could have touched me - my heart was full when you came here today.

You have touched me more profoundly than I thought even you could have touched me - my heart was full when you came here today.

you always concentrate my whole senses

"My mind has been the most discontented and restless one that ever was put into a body too small for it. I never felt my mind repose upon anything with complete and undistracted enjoyment- upon no person but you. When you are in the room my thoughts never fly out of window: you always concentrate my whole senses". John Keats

Sunday, August 09, 2009

It started out as a feeling

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word
And then that word grew louder and louder
’till it was a battle cry

I’ll come back..
When you call me
No need to say good bye

Just because everything’s changing
Doesn’t mean it’s never been this way before

All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war
Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

You’ll come back when its over
No need to say good bye
You’ll come back when it’s over
No need to say good bye.

Now we’re back to the beginning
It’s just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can’t feel it too
Doesn’t mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stonger and stonger
’til they’re before your eyes

You’ll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye
You’ll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

The reason I would die for

It started as a dream,
a dream which kept me alive,
I wandered though the miseries of life,
in pursuit of happiness,
in search of you…

You are my unfulfilled prophesy,
you are all what I had, what I cared for
the reason to live for…
the reason to die for.

Words are caught in my own breath,
drowned in my own feelings,
you keep me floating,
the longing to be together keeps me going.

I waited so long for one answer,
which could have changed the world forever for me.
The sound of words and promises can be hollow
but I cant leave the feelings inside,
don’t let my heart turn to stone.

I had a dream yesterday, a beautiful dream
we were together on a beach ,
countless stars watching us,
walking gently hand in hand.

I still can feel the warmth of your body
the aura of your soul around me.
When I am near you I am alive,
hold me close,
don’t let me fall into the chasm of emptiness.

I want this dream to last forever,
without you I am a dead stone.
I've cried a thousand tears for this moment
looked up the dark sky and prayed.

I don’t know the source of this feeling.
Now It’s just not a feeling but
a promise,
a prophesy,
all because
You are the reason I would live for…
You are the reason I would die for…

--Abhilash

Monday, March 30, 2009

Lonliness

Now it is Loneliness who comes at night
Instead of Sleep, to sit beside my bed.
Like a tired child I lie and wait her tread,
I watch her softly blowing out the light.
Motionless sitting, neither left or right
She turns, and weary, weary droops her head.
She, too, is old; she, too, has fought the fight.
So, with the laurel she is garlanded.

Through the sad dark the slowly ebbing tide
Breaks on a barren shore, unsatisfied.
A strange wind flows… then silence.  I am fain
To turn to Loneliness, to take her hand,
Cling to her, waiting, till the barren land
Fills with the dreadful monotone of rain

-Katherine Mansfield

Thursday, March 26, 2009

My last smile

The sky was dark, stars were fading
streets were empty,
lamps were dim

Orion was slain again
Wounded Sagittarius was lost in deep forest
Down below Leo was breathing his last.

A thunder was brewing up in the sky,
the sea was stirring,
the volcanoes fuming

The southern wind swirled over me,
trying to say something
It brought me muffled voices, broken words

Tinctured breeze played the eternal note of sadness
I walked, North Star guiding me,
Southern wind leading me.

Familiar faces, friends, colleagues, relatives
They have grown old, so fast
Prayer, worry & fear were in their eyes.

Between them lay, a human form
Aged and motionless,
with scars of a lonely sailor at rough sea.

Air, Water, Earth, Fire & Sky stood still
Sea and volcanoes stood in abyss
Nobody moved, nothing stirred

Like a lightening it came,
the last flash of life, the smile on his face
a smile full of life, love & hope.

It was a familiar smile
Alas. I recognized it
It was my smile

Yes the smile!!! Once forgotten smile,
the smile of love…the smile of hope
But for whom did I smile last???

The last smile was for thee
The last cry was for thee
I was born for thee

Thou was my destiny,
thou was my salvation
Now I’m dying for thee

Death came riding the tide
swept away the last sign of life
but the smile remained ,
the last smile to grave,
the last smile for thee…

---Abhilash

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

How Do I Love Thee?

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of being and ideal grace.
I love thee to the level of every day’s
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for right.
I love thee purely, as they turn from praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood’s faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints.  I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life;  and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.